You and I

You

You and I

You

Baby

I had big plans for us

Plans I didn’t even know I had

Until after

Until now

He said

Sit back down where you belong

In the corner of my bar

With your high heels on

Big ideas

You and I

Together

Entwined

Looking

At you

At me

Locked

Sit back down on the couch where we

Made love the first time

And you said to me

I miss you

Most days

Everyday

Today

the root of the root

the bud of the bud

what spring does to the cherry trees

I love you

This whole time

With him

and with him

and even now

when I am alive

glowing

in the possibility

of him

It’s you

Baby you and I

babydoll

You wrote

To me

In pencil

That morning

That last day

Before everything crumbled before me

I remember the mist

The sun coming up

Knowing you were asleep

Inside

Safe

And I was safe too

Tied to you

and safe

Treasured

I wrote

Not loved

But adored

It was almost enough

That night

The alive one before the mist

(and the truth)

Was almost enough

Kissing you

Looking at you

You looking at me

Enough

I loved you

It was so simple

Small and holy

The

loveliest

version

of me

Whole

and wide eyed

and precious

You and I

Baby

You and I