I read your email right after you sent it. My heart jumped. I’ve been preoccupied, lately, with this guy (hot and French). I had almost forgotten what an overwhelming crush I had on you. I remember it now. I don’t know how to respond. I want to be honest and open and familiar. Not superficial. Or sarcastic. Or defensive. But the only honest thing is, I’ve had feelings for you probably since we met. I remember that first dinner, at that place by the bridge, there with the group. I don’t know if I was aware of you then, not the way I would become in the weeks/months later. But I do remember how it was, suddenly, out of nowhere, and all at once – being aware of you. We sat next to each other at Brody one night, at the edge of the room. And it was there then, like blinking. I don’t think I would ever get tired of talking to you. I like you. I like the way you see things. The way you smile. The way you treat your friends. The way you treat me. And wherever the line between like and love is, I don’t mind if it’s blurred beyond recognition. I’m happy to love you. I want to know all about you. I want to start a conversation with you that will never end. And maybe this is all too much. How well do we really know each other? Is this even okay to say, let alone feel? I don’t know. Lately I feel a little like I’m having to re learn myself. Which is a gift. Life. Aliveness. Point being: I’m happy to know less than I thought I did, to open to all the magic I thought I had become closed to. So for this, like so many other answers, I don’t know. What I do know: I like you love you miss you. I want to talk to you. I want to lay next to you, ride in the car next to you, hold hands, be silent, be laughing, be kissing. I want to try new things and have new ideas and be able to catch your eye from across the room and know exactly what we are to each other. A whole little world. Magic. Possibility. Love. Good. So whatever you’re doing in this moment that you’re reading this, know that someone out there thinks of you. Wants the best for you. Believes in you. Waits for you to return.